Angela Hill
03-27-2012, 04:28 PM
I have been taking Risperdal since about April of last year, but I was only on .25 mg. I stopped taking it about 2 months ago for a few weeks, but got back on it when I started going into a dark hole. We thought it was because I started Buspar, but my psych (who didn't take me off the med and start a new one, my other doc did) advised me to begin the Risperdal again because she believed that was what was causing my problems, not the new med.
So I got back on it a couple weeks ago, but we are bumping up my dose, right now I am on .50mg.
My question is this: have any of you had abnormal thoughts while on Risperdal/Risperidone? When I say abnormal, this is what I experience: I get thoughts that have sort of a 1970s feel to them, and it weirds me out and causes anxiety and even panic. I can't explain it other than saying my thoughts will have the feel of watching a movie made in the 70s, the fashion, the colors, it will even have a grainy appearance like an older movie has. I have had to make myself focus on something clearly made today, like a t-shirt with lots of designs and colors very much popular for today's fashion.
I also have LOUD thoughts. Like, people and songs are extra loud and sometimes sound like yelling, it's usually when I am trying to sleep or unwind. I have told my doc about this already.
I also have thoughts about bad things happening to my family. Like, if one of them says, "I will see you later" I will think "If you don't die on the way to work." Or if my kids are outside I will worry for a second and rather than think of a car hitting them and worrying, I will picture it and think, "I wish they'd get hit by a car." I don't though! I am very paranoid, but lately if I am a little lenient, I have these weird thoughts. I either have to counteract them with something like, "I don't wish that would happen" often thinking to myself WHY do I think like this? Or I feel like I physically (in my head) have to STOP the thought from forming, like I have to create this wall and push the bad thought away, or hum a song, or look around and distract myself from the thought.
I know this was a long post but I really wanted to explain how weird it is and get a feel of if this is something other people have experienced? Something so completely strange and out there. I feel like I am reaching that point of really being crazy.
So I got back on it a couple weeks ago, but we are bumping up my dose, right now I am on .50mg.
My question is this: have any of you had abnormal thoughts while on Risperdal/Risperidone? When I say abnormal, this is what I experience: I get thoughts that have sort of a 1970s feel to them, and it weirds me out and causes anxiety and even panic. I can't explain it other than saying my thoughts will have the feel of watching a movie made in the 70s, the fashion, the colors, it will even have a grainy appearance like an older movie has. I have had to make myself focus on something clearly made today, like a t-shirt with lots of designs and colors very much popular for today's fashion.
I also have LOUD thoughts. Like, people and songs are extra loud and sometimes sound like yelling, it's usually when I am trying to sleep or unwind. I have told my doc about this already.
I also have thoughts about bad things happening to my family. Like, if one of them says, "I will see you later" I will think "If you don't die on the way to work." Or if my kids are outside I will worry for a second and rather than think of a car hitting them and worrying, I will picture it and think, "I wish they'd get hit by a car." I don't though! I am very paranoid, but lately if I am a little lenient, I have these weird thoughts. I either have to counteract them with something like, "I don't wish that would happen" often thinking to myself WHY do I think like this? Or I feel like I physically (in my head) have to STOP the thought from forming, like I have to create this wall and push the bad thought away, or hum a song, or look around and distract myself from the thought.
I know this was a long post but I really wanted to explain how weird it is and get a feel of if this is something other people have experienced? Something so completely strange and out there. I feel like I am reaching that point of really being crazy.